Little Lovebug’s Update


How am I already 17 weeks?!?! Almost halfway through this pregnancy already. It’s so hard to fathom that we’ll be meeting our Bug face to face so soon. 

The past weeks have been packed. Dallas and I celebrated 10 months of marriage!  I’m so lucky to have him as my partner in life and Bug is so lucky to have him as a Daddy. He’s been quite the trooper through our crazy pregnancy and my steady companion… always pointing me to Jesus in the dark moments. 

I also got to feel our little Bug for the first time! Such a sweet gift this past week. I feel the tiniest of flutters and only when I am calm and relaxed and sitting or laying down. This little one sure loves to move!!

We had our third ultrasound and like before I am flabbergasted by how much this bug is growing!! LoveBug is curled up yet still wiggling away as he/she is growing. My blood spot is still there and still a concern however our bug seems healthy and strong!  So I praise God for that 💚

Dallas and I are so excited to find out the gender and finally be able to call this little one by his or her name. Most likely my next post will be a gender and name reveal!  Thank you to everyone for their support and prayers.  We truly are so blessed by family and friends God has given us. 
Dearest Bug, 

You are one of my greatest blessings already. I got to see you again today all snuggled up inside me. You sure gave the technician a hard time as she tried to give us lots of pictures.  You are growing so big and I’m so proud (eventhough my pants won’t fit much longer!) I love feeling you move around and I pray that one day you will move in step with God’s will.  You’ll be a force to be reckoned with little Love. I love you more than even I can comprehend some days. 

💚your joyful momma💚

So Long, First Trimester!

Hallelujah, I’m officially out of the first trimester!!  What a doozy…  those first weeks of pregnancy were a whirlwind of emotions. I was so grateful and so excited about Baby Bug!  However along with my joy came extreme morning sickness 😷
I’m a teacher… so other teachers know the pain of missing school and needing a substitute. Because of morning sickness I missed FIVE days of school in the first five weeks. I also came in an hour (or more) late to school about three times. 

The struggle was real in our house. 

I couldn’t decide which was worse… someone telling me they had morning sickness the whole nine months or someone telling me about so-and-so who didn’t have any morning sickness.  Let’s just say A LOT of tears were shed. I was plagued with guilt. Guilt about feeling miserable and being unproductive. Guilt about complaining to people. Guilt about being sick and feeling like it was somehow my fault. Guilt about not being a good enough teacher and wife. 


I want to encourage anyone struggling with morning sickness. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to stay home from work. It does not mean you are not strong enough. Everyone’s pregnancy is different. I had to accept that. I also had to ask for help. 
When I first told my doctor that I had horrible morning sickness the response was “oh, that’s normal!” With a big smile. If Dallas wouldn’t have been with me I probably would have accepted that answer and stopped there. But he pushed… explaining how bad the nausea was and how often I was in the bathroom throwing up anything and everything.  That’s when I finally got prescription medicine. It wasn’t a magic cure but it sure helped!

Let’s just say I’m glad the sickness is finally starting to ease up. I can see the glorious light at the end of the tunnel. I’m no longer whispering to myself between throwing up that it’s all worth it. I already can see it. Finally! 

B

Dearest Little LoveBug,
Every sick day, every second spent over a toilet was worth it. I would already do it all over again and I haven’t even held you in my arms yet!!  I’ve seen you though. Wiggling and moving away inside of me. Your daddy and I had a good laugh at your acrobatic skills at our last ultrasound. I can’t wait to meet you face to face little Bug. You are already such a blessing to me. You push me toward God as I seek comfort and patience and love. 

❤️ your waiting momma ❤️